Assalamualaikum wrth,

I would like to share a poem that I wrote during the Tazkiyah Retreat that I attended for 10 days at Camp Fowler , Adirondack Mountain . It was around 5.45 am in the morning last Saturday and I was sitting by the lake.

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Knocking At Your Door

I am listening to the sounds of the birds
I wish I am a bird
I am looking at the stillness of a rock
I wish I am a rock
I am wondering at the calmness of the lake
I wish I am a lake
I am looking at the 5 ducklings constantly following her mother
I wish I am a duckling
I listened to Yahya Ibn Muaz’s story
I wish I am he

To the birds I said
I wish I could constantly in zikr of Allah like you
To the rock I said
I wish my qalb is still like you
To the lake I said
I wish my nafs is as calm as you do
To the duckling I said
I wish I followed Rasulullah SAW constantly as you do
To Yahya Ibn Muaz I said
I wish I am ‘ibad like you

But who am I
A sinful human being
With a clouded heart
With a broken mirror to see in me
An ugly being kept in me
I wish I looked at it constantly since before
But who am I
A sinful human being

O Allah I am knocking at your door
Wishing you to open for me
Oh! I saw a woodpecker in front of me
Knocking at a tree in front of my eyes
Subhanallah
I wish I am a woodpeacker

To you oh Allah
Please open the door for me
For I long your forgiveness and mercy on me
O Allah
Please accept my heart
As my heart have something to say

O Allah, I am weak
Turn my weaknesses to strength to what pleases you
Please take my forelock to khair
And let Islam be my ultimate expression of satisfaction

Ya Allah
Verily I am weak, base and low
Please elevate me I am in need
Please enrich me

O Allah
Please open the door for me

June 20, 2004
Saturday
6.27 am
By the lake